I know I should be grateful to have two healthy boys, and if you catch me at a quiet moment I would probably agree. But right now, I don't like babies. Or toddlers.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I don't like babies
Or toddlers too much. At least, not at the moment. I suppose this qualifies me for world's worst mother. I fear my attitude is due to having two colicky babies. Honestly, what did I do to deserve this? I see moms with little babies and they're cooing at each other, and I think, "why couldn't that be me?" I feel a bit ripped off. With Brice, he spent the first four months bellowing and it was all I could do to get through the day. He slept like a champ at night, but he screamed all the livelong day. Everyone told me I would have a calm baby, as no one has TWO colicky babies. Well, I did, it appears. And now I have a high-maintenance toddler who's not taking too well to the new little guy. Or, maybe he's not taking well to the fact he has to share me. But I can't even pick up the kid without him biting me or pinching me. Sometimes all I have to do is walk past him to set him off. He hates it when I feed Harry and tries to hit him or throw books at him. And if I put Harry down and try and pay attention to Brice, Harry rages. Oh, Harry doesn't nap either. Don't get me started on what mealtimes are like around here. It's not pretty, i'll leave it at that.
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Holy smokes, Danielle! I can't say I blame you! It sounds so, so hard! How old is Harry now? I saw a huge shift in Isaac at 2 months. He calmed down a lot...though it doesn't sound like he was quite as feisty as Harry!
What do you do to take care of yourself? Do you get breaks? Does Seth (I'm worrying that that is not your husband's name. I can't believe that I don't remember!) still work late? Are you near family?
argh! most moms (even ones with non-coliky babies) don't like their kids... okay, so maybe it is just me but i have days that i don't like my kids!
You are a wonderful mother and a wonderful woman to admit what every mom feels from time to time. I have one very easy going toddler and I still have plenty of "I don't like you right now" moments. Your situation is uniquely and ridiculously challenging. God must have something pretty awesome planned for you to put you through this test! I wish we were closer so I could take your darling angels off your hands once in a while. Feel free to call or email any time you need to vent or just cry... no judgment! Praying for you!
You are a wonderful mother and a wonderful woman to admit what every mom feels from time to time. I have one very easy going toddler and I still have plenty of "I don't like you right now" moments. Your situation is uniquely and ridiculously challenging. God must have something pretty awesome planned for you to put you through this test! I wish we were closer so I could take your darling angels off your hands once in a while. Feel free to call or email any time you need to vent or just cry... no judgment! Praying for you!
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