Colic (and family) Update

I think it's over. I really do. It's been lessening the past week and haven't had any raging for the past few days. Ahhh.... AND, he's no longer sleeping in his carseat. He's a big boy now, sleeping in his pack and play (inside his changing pad; keeps him cozy). He's still swaddled, but that's not a big deal. We can even put him down drowsy and he'll fall asleep. This may not seem like a big deal, but believe me. It is. Today, he's napping on a schedule. Wow.
I originally started this blog thinking it would be primarily a place to keep family updated on the boys. And it is. But I also thought i'd write about what was going on with ME and SETH. What we were doing, thinking, eating, reading. It's not that i've not had the time, it's that we've not done anything for the past four months. We've gone out to eat once without the boys (thanks Christa!!). I've not read a single book. I've cooked, like, three meals. I've cried 5 out of 7 days a week. We've not been back to housegroup yet. We have started back to church. But that's it, really. If we'd known how HARD this would have been, and we could have gotten a guarantee we'd still have Harry, we would have waited to have the second. Brice is a strong-willed child who did not take well to sharing me. We've been negotiating tantrums, flailing about trying to discipline him in ways that would not break his spirit, all while listening to Harry rage in the background. It's been a hard four months. But I think things are turning. I do. I feel it. Brice isn't changing; he's becoming harder, in fact. But I have more energy for him now. More patience. And Harry is getting so much easier (and quieter!!). I think we made it.